At vestry meeting the discussion turned to whether or not we should allow nominations from the floor for vestry members as we are using a different selection process than voting by ballots. I had to let it be known that I understood her concerns and found nominations from the floor to be rather annoying no matter the selection method. I also feel that we should allow for nominations from the floor. We just have to trust.
After the meeting she comes up to me and says “You really do believe in God.” To which I replied “Well, I guess I do.” She says, “Some people were wondering.”
I was glad that my faith was revealed by my willingness to let the chosen process go without having to control it. I was also glad that many people understand that at some point we just have to trust.
My heart is also warmed to think that some of my parishioners might actually wonder if I believe in God. (Was she just being silly?) I think there was truth in her humor, and that maybe I have been real enough with some folks for them to see that I am not always 100% on the belief meter.
I do believe, or trust, or desire God- I feel less certain about how God works in the world, but I am holding out for a loving God that comes on a lot like the Jesus revealed in the Gospels. (Yes, I do trust that Jesus is indeed God!)
Thanks to Barbara for the reminder that I do believe, on a day when I wasn’t so sure. Of all things, I get that word from a discussion about our desire to control things. My heart and mind were stuck in that territory most of the day.
I definitely believe in God.
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